Choosen One

There was a story about a guy that felt happy for the girl that he love so much when the girl wanna to get marry.  I just never feel that way before because I always feel that I ain't good enough for anyone and no one is good enough for me either. Am I too selfish ? But actually when I think back about what type of guy that I wanna as my boyfriend just too perfect that I can't believe what reason do I have to have this kind of guy in my life.  What I know is that god give us something and they take back something from us. So those people that think boys/girls ain't good enough from them should think what does they deserve to have a better one.

Thought

Now a day, I keep on thinking back about all those high school memory that me and my bff had.  It was so fun but now I found out that what I can't find in college is happiness.  All those subject became harder and my results ain't like my high school anymore.  Everything change when u growth older and everything that I know become weaker to me. Why is it happening?  Such a sad situation.  I am totally losing everything.  Everytime I am alone, I felt so lonely and nothing seem to be right for me.

Miracle

Life is just so meaningless

Why do people need to live and work hard for a better life

But at the end what we get is just suffering from sickness
This is just not right

I hope that in the end, we as a human being can live happily without any pain

Regret and mistake happen to everyone

But we learn how to forgive and forget

But do miracle happen on us?

But I hope that miracle could happen

Who are you to judge ?

Everyone is different although they are not prefect

But they dont deserve being judge by others

We also have our right to fight back when others judge us

Maybe we are not rich or pretty

But we are still a human being that have feeling

So when others jugde you badly 

Be strong and fight back

But not just crying at the back without fight back

She is gone

28.8.2011

On that day morning she keep on looking at me when I was in her room 

Her pretty eye look at me like she miss me so much

I know that she was in pain but she can't speak then on that night she just pass away

I miss her so much

That I still can't accept that she is gone

I regret that I did not love her that much as she does

Before she pass away she suffer alot 

But she never show out how much pain she was in

What left is just memory

Truth

I am in the dark

Searching for the truth

Everything that I did is wrong? !!

WHY? Why is this happening?

Where is the truth ?

What can I do with it?

I never know that I was wrong

I never know that everyone is hating me

But now I know

I just nothing but just an idoit that noone would care
What I did is just wasting my time

I think, I did the right decision to let you go

I happy for you that you found the one that love you

If I am with you, your life will be miserable

I am right that I made my own life miserable

And with you there for me, you will live like this as I am

I feel happy but not massing up with ur life 

Best wishes for ya from me